Eclipse

Dear B,

How are you?

Really miss you now,

I  had a vacay last 2 weeks i think,

somewhere at Malaysia,

It is an island with a tranquility scenery

To think and finally tired and just ignore it a bit..

let's divert attention to the exciting moments

just want to share some picca here

SubhanAllah seriously the scenery is calming

the awan nano~

the scenery in front of the resort

the bluey water with the fish

there are so many fish at the sea!

the crabs and so on, there are turtles too..but xupload here

the nemo! soooo cute nemo :)

have fun with snorkelling and diving session

layan jiwa kacau~

the scene at the jetty

seriously cun~

and the scene atas bukit.

I think that's all for today's post. Can't share all of it. Btw this is the only things that make me happy, travel around, but to be truth, just go, go,even it;s too far, million miles away pon you will not going to forget all those messy things with you right, problem if we can left it behind, it is just a liar who can said like that, i left my problem behind and I'm 100% happy with the vacation, Totally rubbish!

I just want happiness, I don't have to be a famous or rich, I just want to be happy me!

layan this song

Who said ALLAH tu kejam, walaupun ada kesedihan pada Jun 2013 ni, ada jugak kegembiraan pinjaman yang diberi, walaupon sekejap, jadilah.. :) Thanks Allah..
Allah tarik sedikit nikmat, dia beri nikmat lain pulak..SubhanAllah,,,
seeking for forgiveness from Allah.. Dear Sya'aban..please be good to me.. :)

sengsara

Never Say GoodBye June Irony

Dear B,








It's Isra' Mikraj today...



I've a lot of things to tell you..



Heartache.



Deep hurt and in pain.



Don't know to whom I should tell this.







THE IRONY of JUNE







Back to June 2011



It was a month full of sadness, there's so much pain on that June, seriously.



Lost the one that I love the most.







Al-Fatihah to My Late Lovely Mom



Hajah Azizah Binti Hajah Norpiah.







Allahumma firlaha warhamha wa'afiha wa'fu'anha..



AL-Fatihah khususan ila ruhi Hajah Azizah Binti Hajah Norpiah laha...







Dengan Menyebut NamaMu Ya Allah,



Yang Maha Pengasih Penyayang,



Segala Puji BagiMu Ya Allah,



Pemelihara Seluruh Alam Raya,



Engkau Yang Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang,



Yang Menguasai Hari Pembalasan,



KepadaMu Kami Menyembah dan padaMu kami mohon pertolongan,



Tunjukkanlah kami ke jalan yang lurus,



Jalan orang-orang yang kau beri nikmat,



Bukan jalan mereka yang kau murkai,



Dan bukan jalan mereka yang sesat.







Ada hikmahnya...yet we don't barely know the reason is.



Allah Maha Mengetahui.



Almost 2 years..but yet macam semalam i lost her.



macam semalam je doctor said sorry to me coz can't save mom



and macam semalam je rase berada dekat wad 6 tengok mom left me



and masa-masa terakhir tu mom always ask, dah pukul berapa,



and keep repeating it...tak tahu pon yang her time has come on that day



seriously tak terdetik pon she will left us on that day...



Dua tahun dah nak berlalu..her loves is still around..but i'm sorry mom..



I can't do like what you did..i can't help dad..and I can't hold my tears for you..



and sampai sekarang I tak faham why my mom left me in front of me,



not in front of my dad or else my siblings,



i just don't get the answer yet..



still searching for an answer...







June 2012



This month of the year was totally awesome.



I never imagined that i can be there.



Thanks Allah for the sweetest and memorable moment ever.



(will tell you more on the next post if I do really tak busy and rajin nak blogging)







June 2013?



SAD EPISODE AGAIN



ALTERNATE YEAR



WHAT'S HURT THE MOST?



Being cheat by someone you TRUST the most



Being left by someone you LOVE the most



and paling sakit sekali to forcing laughter, fake a smile and pretend that nothing happen for both hurt the most statement tu..







Kenapa perlu menipu?



Bercakaplah benar sekalipun ia pahit!



Penipuan tu tak kan bawak you ke mana..



Tipu lah macam mana pon..



If really yes, finally you been caught jugak..



Irrational! and ridiculous!~







Dear Heart Breaker aka Heart Destructor = Heart player ,







Pls stop playing with someone's heart.



Pls stop playing around.



You never know how hurt it was if someone plays with your heart.



Just be honest to them, and tell them the truth.



Eventhough it's hurt. but then they won't be suffered for the entire of their life.



Better to kill them rather than do all this fake action of love, just to temporary comfort them.



Am I right B?



I hate LIES and evenmore the LIARS too..hate!HATE!







Tak senang untuk memaafkan, penipuan yang tak boleh dimaafkan,



yet I'm not a God right, I have no right to not to forgive people.



maybe can, but not now it takes time.



I'm terribly hurt now.







Pls give me a courage to forgive someone who did hurt me so bad.



and I'm sorry for those whom I did hurt them. I'm deeply sorry.











JUNE 2014



????



HIDUP LAGI KE?



kalau dah xde mungkin jadi kebahagiaan kat semua orang didunia ni kan..



esspecially orang yang menyampah and hate me a lot



tak ade yang sakit dan menangis, happy coz I'm gone..



but yet I'm not Tuhan, tak tahu bila masa diambil nyawa ni..











Semoga Allah memperindahkan June 2014 nanti jika berkesempatan dan diberi peluang untuk hidup lagi di dunia ni.
and i keep bear in my mind, Orang-orang yang kita sayang hanyalah pinjaman, bila-bila masa je Allah will ambil dia dari kita,
mungkin hatinya, mungkin jasadnya, mungkin keseluruhannya,
Redhalah wahai Cik Siti!







I'm not a good girl, I did sins,



Please forgive me Ya Allah for all my sins that I've done.


saya mungkin tak cantik
saya mungkin tak baik
saya mungkin tak sempurna
saya tak seperti ape yang awak inginkan
tapi saya punya hati,
punya hati dan perasaan
hati dan perasaan yang bukan untuk dipermainkan sewenang-wenangnya
senang je nak cakap sayang and cinta dekat orang, tapi jangan sesekali cakap kalau awak tak maksudkannya..

Thanks for hurting me a lot.
Thanks for the lies too.
At least I know the real truth of you.

Terima Kasih Allah untuk kebenaran ini.


Lesson Learn:

Don't let yourself drowning and lost with love words from MEN!



He is a liar and he let you trust them with those sweet words.



He is a sweet talker and he act like a pro.



He is a cheater and broke his promises in a minute.



PLS SITI DON'T TRUST HIM AGAIN!

it's june...

WELCOME June..


Want to tell some stories about June..
The reminiscences of June..

But then...don't know where to start..obviously there's nothing special...
I shouldn't have to tell it yet..

Dear B..

I miss someone special...
Yet I don't know should I tell you in this..

Ohmypricecharming..
I want to do these things with you

deeply sad

Dear b..

This was totally sad..
ToDay..don't know why..
 Miss my mom

Thanks for the words Along

my best usm buddy suda kawen..yeayyy

Assalammualaikum Dear Baby Boo Blog...


How are you today?
Hoping that you are fine there..
Do you miss me B..?

Haha..blushing la tuu..
I know you miss me...but unwanted stalker absolutely miss me more right..opss not miss me more but miss my entry more..

 Have some update today..
Last weekend I had so much fun with the ex U mates yang awesome. .

THEY are

Ayu Shafrina

Mang Izyana

Sedey opah jan tak hado..
Last minute cancel plan
Coz she got a class to be tutored..
Sedey sekali...can it be approved leave been cancelled last minute...fortunate that jan is the one who face it..if me then I just don't how to handle

Fyd..

She's so beautiful as she is as usual..

Hehe..

Btw her spouse is my excoursemate dekat U

And she is my ex school mate mase dekat U jugak..berjodohan mereka ni..btw I jadi unplanned bridesmaid..haishhh she chose me pulakk aiii...layankan hajooo..

Ayu ngelat xmo jadi penyepit..padahal baju die da sedondon da...I je out of theme sket..

Last piece before balek

Geng mak jemah with the pengantin yang tak kurang mak jemahnye jugak

Lame gils tak camwhore dengan dia ni..

Seriously rindu zaman dolu kale

Penyepit and flower girls tak lupe berhenna jugeeee

Dan minah yang paling gile camera skali harussslah wajib hado gambar blakon kannn...

B..okay da..tu je nak cite hari ni..nak solat isya jap..sehingga bertemu kembali. .tatata b...

takde tajuk

Hi B,

How are you,

Hoping that you are fine,

Of course you are right?

I just want to share this song

Sad :'(

Just don't want to be sad anymore,

Let's have some fun.

Btw, i listen to this song today, when I'm on my way to home, and you know what

It was my 1st time to listen this song btw.

:'(

Meaningful~

i wish for an everlasting happiness :)

FOrGive and FOrGet~

Dad is going THERE again,

yet I know I won't be able to follow him.

I wish for a miracle happen

so that I'll be there again,

I want the tranquility 

which couldn't be found here.

I MISS all the moments there.

Hoping that there will be another 

chance and opportunity to go there.

Perhaps Dua' being heard.

AMIN.

Saya Tak Sempurna & Saya Bukan Malaikat

Assalammualaikum B,

Selamat Hari Khamis :)

B, 

I need something from you,

Could u please lend me your ears for a while,

and just listen to me,

Oh my baby boo blog,

Could u please say yes?

I promise that I'll not share my recent problems with you B,

I just want to recall some moments,

B,

I'm sorry, I"m not a perfect person yet I'm not an angel too.(tp bukan Shaitonnirrajim)

I just want to share my feelings with you, what i felt for the past few months of 2013.

People hates me for the things that they unsure about, they don't know the truth.

Outer-side I'm the one who will be blamed for, but actual condition and situation they just don't know.

Why judging the inner-side of people who you don't know him or her well?

You are not the Creator , you can't simply judge people right?.

B,

I'm tired!

Terribly tired...and the surround was so pathetic too.

I think that I just can't control myself.

I can't stand still.

Seem the messy mind things won't go out of my mind.

I need a vacay~

soonest!

please........

The stresses of responsible towards what you have or need to gain for the entire of your life.

This statement sound ridiculous but yet it do affected my consequences of life.

Again, thanks Allah for the challenges and the courage to endure the pain and love of life events.

People can talk bad about you, yet it won't affected much of your feelings, mood and thought to them.

How brave and strong to just simply ignore what they said. Badmouth people are just hate with what you have because they suffer a heart disease right. How I wish I can be a wondergirl~ Opss not K-pop wondergirl tuuu..absolutely not..supergirl with supernatural gifted..ehem..effected with movies..oh no!

suka sangat gambau ni!xnmpk muke..the scenery was Subhanallah cantiknye! ciptaan Allah awesome!

 

 

 

Last week I berkesempatan nengok cite AKU,KAU DIA,

this cerita best! sedey n I nanges kot nengoknye..

lagu pon besh

meh tempek lagu2 OST kt sini

Cerita die best, sedey, dan sedey, but finally it was an happy ending jugak

 

Sabarlah Hati

B,

ni nak share lagu best,

layannnn

 shiapa nak teman I nengok cite twilight breaking dawn?

jommmmmm!

tiring

Dear B ♥♡♥♡♥♡...

Been busy with work but then still tried to spent some hours with my friend. .

On the 17th April was Mang's birthday..

We had a dinner at Damsyik..

Mang's is going to umrah for the second time..she's so lucky and fortunately met her before she's going there.  Hopefully I'll get another chances to go there...

I'm hoping that mang will recite my letter of dua' there and perhaps being heard by our Lord. Ameen...

Its been a while we didn't meet and have a gossiping session together. .really miss the moments when we were at university...

Have fun together...dinner almost together..cook..sports..hang out..movie time..ohh thats is life!

Dalam kesibutan kerja..sompek lae...

Ayu likes to go here..and the nasik arab taste good...

The shaypot!

Shay taste best!

Pahit2 tapi sodap...

Rasa macam tak rasa..

Don't know how to describe

gulai siput sedut.

Dear B..

IT'S been a while..I cudn't remember when it was a last time I ate this gulai..
Tibe2 few weeks back terasa cam nak makan this gulai siput..serious lama dh tak rasa masakan ni..
I told my sis thru our family group WhatsApp..last 2 weeks..Ateh Noora did try to search this siput at zemart unfortunately takde jual kat sane..so tak ley la nak masak kan...so tak pe lah...tak ade rezeki..and yesterday Along Alin did buy this gulai for us! Yeay..I'm seriously happy..hey! Ape kene mengena this siput sedut with my life?
Nak tau ke b? It's just that I miss the memory when mom use to cook for us..mom suka masak this gulai..when I was a kid dulu..ayah or mom yang dulu tolong sedutkan untuk I bila we had a family lunch or dinner. .I miss that moment..I miss mom more.. still remember masa mom nak basuh the siput..then the siput da merayau2 da..huhu..just nice..still remember mom did siang the siput..and the gulai was awesome..taste well with the pedas..gulai masak lemak mom Terbahekkk. .seriously miss all about mom now..da seminggu tak ziarah mom..coz in a week of mamnu'..and yesterday I went there after work..cried all over again..told her about my stresses of work loads..about everything...I told her that I miss her so much..I need her..miss her hug and kisses..Miss all about her again..I know I wouldn't have any chance to meet her again..I know that..I beg that if I can have a chance to see her again eventho in a dream..actually I want to share a cerita when I was doing tawaf with sorang makcik ni..her character just like mom..she's soft spoken..cantik..baik..just like mom..and she remind me a lot about mom...I wish I cud turn back time and appreciate everything yang mom did for me...I'll share what had happened when I and the auntie at Mecca okay..if I do have some more time to post in..

AUFA dak kembar baru je kua hospital semalam..Alhamdulillah...sian tengok baby Kecik2 ni tak sihat..semoga Allah sembuhkan Aufa..tak sampai hati tengok baby kene macam2 kat hospital..yet auntie yang busy ni..tak dapat pon melawat Aufa kat spital..sibuk nau dengan kerja yang mengkayakan samseng..kerja lebey2 pon mana la kaya sangat...OT lebey pon tak bayar..bile mengomel2 dekat sis..nasib baek Alang Dila motivate cakap yang kerja itu kan ibadah..rasa sejuk sket hati and boost up the motivation untuk kerja seikhlas mungkin..ehhh..apepasal topik pasal kerja ni..kan nak story mory pasal siput..out of topic lagi...nampak sangat jiwa kacau pasal kerja kan...

Macam2 dugaan kan Allah beri..I diuji dengan benda laen..cer tengok..Alang Dila pon kena uji jugak..kalau di timbal balek..ape sangat la ujian kerja I ni jika dibandingkan dengan orang laen..Alang dila mesti risau Aufa tak sihat..like mom did masa dulu..mom always worry if one of her child demam ke ape ke..walaupun anak2nye dah besa panjang..yet still die risau..tak boleh tido..and malam2 letak kain yang direndam dengan air asam tu..supaya demam kebah..mom always did like that when I got fever...hanya mom je yang rasa risau macam tu kan..forsure Alang Dila pon risaukan Aufa..semoga Aufa cepat sembuh...amin...

Banyaknye mende nak cerita..but then too privacy to tell write..ehem..some people say..apr guna buat blog but then untuk diprivatekan..yet..for me..sukati orang tulah..nak bagi blog die private ke tak kan..xpayah nak kisah sangat..they have their own right to do anything...human right...erkkk..apo ni..da takdo kono mengono dah haaa..

Okay la b...dari semalam dok save post ni..nak publish sat...

Babai b..

Love u muchas..

Till meet again to the next post

Hug n kisses from me!

Rindu2 tengok gambo I ye b..Ececeeee

Ehee pandang tepi laks..

Cer tgk depan sket

Okay da b..

Rindu2 tengok salu ye...

Rindu gils dengan cik soulmate I ni..nak bergosip mak jemah pon tak sompek noks oi..tipon pon x..gosip kat message je..

Jom gi kenduri kawen..

Tadaa...

Dari semalam sampai la ke tengah hari ni..

Baru nak publish post..asik siaran tergendala jer...haishh

Tajuk post siput..tapi takde pon gambar siput kan..gambar I yang buat kerja macam siput ade laa..lombap2 yo haaa...

I need a vacation

Dear baby boo blog...

What to share today?

I've been so busy with the duniawi things..

I'm tired!

Nak pooh and tido sampai lebam..
Too tired with the workloads.
Dah tak tahan lagi..
Hoping that I will stand still or else dapat better offer than this company..

Miss the old me..
I miss my life...
I want my life back
LiFe ain't for work only right?
I had it enough...

Oh hardship.
Thanks for being there..
And hoping that u'll be leaving me soon my dear hardship..
U r the great friend of mine..
The things is..I just can't cope it.
I miss the old me! Again!
Just don't want to sigh. .yet I did it..

Oh Allah...
Please forgive me for all my wrongdoings and all my sins that I've done.
I'm terribly sorry for the mistakes..

I need a tranquil vacation! 

Let's fly again!

Baby boo blog! Pls pray for me.. I really want a deep sleep and a vacay!

career conflict

Dear B..

I had self conflict for the past few days. Low self esteem.  Haishhh..why should I feel this?
Someday I wish I can be strong enough to face everything happen to me in this temporary beautiful world. How I wish I have a steel heart. I'm not sure what actually I want in this world. I just don't have self confidence that I can manage to do it. It's so pathetic and hectic life style here. I just want to be a normal person and live life to the fullest. All the obstacles and hardship must be treasure with patience and be thankful right. HE will not burden us for the things that we can't overcome it.

Aleesya damia somel..the masyamness after bangun pagi..bau shedap ohh
Tetibe kan picture ni..xde kene mengena dengan tajuk..out of title

The manuscript yang menyebabkan I've been scolded by boss yesterday..
Oh emmm gee sangat...awesome!  Kene bebel pagi2...
Sonok oi

Trust more HIM and I'm sure the sorrowful episode will be gone. Let's motivate myself with the positive capsule. I'm sure I will be alright soon. Hopefully!

''Its about Edward again. Seem that Bella has no idea when actually Jacob Black will be there. Bella had it enough with Edward.''

hati kering aka dry heart

Dear b..

Seem my heart ni belum cukup kering lagi..
Tak suka jadi stalker hebat..
I just don't know why and I just don't want
to know..
Can I?

Weekend yang hebat plus dapat message dari boss..
Ingat sket..kalau boss message tu dapat pujian ke naek pangkat ke..
Memang tak la kan..of course la pasal kerja and add up kerja..

I don't think that I can handle all this things..
Please la..
I had it enough...
Emosi betul macam ni...

But then I have to face it right..
I know..there's must be a reason why I have to undergo all this sweet things...
Sweet la sangat kan..
Memang tak la..

Kite salu akan dapat sesuatu yang kite benci..
Meh kite start benci benda yang kita sayang..
Untung2 dapat pulak kan...da benci...
Sebabnye salu dapat ape yang kite benci...
Kannnn

Oh ho..
But I know..this case is exceptional. .
Then..I wrap up my case with this own quote. .
Ececeeee da pandai berquote bagai la ni..
Quotes of the day today adalah..

Treat someone else with the way you want to be treated.

Macam tak best pulak posting without a pc of pic..

Meh tempek 1..

Okay2 tak jadilah 1..
tempek lagi 1

Sekian terima kasih b..
Dengar elok ja I membebel ni..
Im starting to miss annur insyirah ni
She smells nice..pure and innocent

I miss you annurrrr!♡
Tolong la pujuk ummi annur ni jadikan auntie ni bibik annur bley tak..

Bley bonti kojo..jadi bibik yo kek umah haa..
Xkoso da nak kojo ni..
Malaih aihh..
Nampaknye 2hari cuti pon x ley nak cure the disease of laziness


Macam mana rupa future bibik annur ni?
Auntie koya ni..


Dear Allah...

Please help me as always..
Please give me my full spirit of working again..
I need positive capsules...
Permudahkan urusanku tomorrow and the day after...
Aminnn..ya rabbal alaminnnn...

dak dikdik

:thoughtful:

Hasil penangkapan gambar guna secondary camera..makanya mata pon kelain...


Dear B..

I had fun with this lil girl named aina nuha...
She's cute..hopefully she's getting better from  
Fever...

Okay..bit update about my work things...

I never thought I can manage this on my own...my works..

Supposedly end my contract on January. ..but then I couldn't get any better offer. .so I just stay and I hope than I can cope and endure the stress of work load here..With the cekadak ulek kek bawah ni haa..messy betoi..

New boss with new direction. .

Xley nak lepak2 ulo2 sangat la kann...

Redhoooo..

she's married

Souvenir from CH!

Dear b...

Have some thought to share here...

Thanks Allah for giving me a chance to know good people when I decided to left Sony and chose Samsung. ..coincidence met someone senget like me..my adik so called my bff too..she almost know all my problem. .and the unsolvable problematic...she had fun at Cameron Highlands for a honeymoon. .yet she still remember me...she did give me the fridge magnet..her family just like mine..cause I always followed her went back home after work..and I also did overnight at her sister's home at putrajaya too..more than once i did follow her went back to her sis' s house also..and I think that I will not get going just like before since she already got the puan title..being someone's wife..I did attend her wedding day at jasin melaka..she just so beautiful as she is...you want to see her picture b?

Here she is..she's gorgeous on her big day..

Siti norsaminar the perantin!

I still remember I tell her about my late mom at the clinic. .when I accompany her to take some medicine there..she felt like crying too..she did tell to her mom..then her mom cried ...oh hoo...so touched when she tell her mom that I usually went to my mom' s grave..we went for a wedding day of our colleagues at senawang. .that day was the 1st time I met her mom..she did go with her mom...felt that her mom is my mom too..can uh? We had breakfast prepared by her mom before going to work.. then I felt like same when my mom is here..she usually prepared breakfast for me before I went to work..eventho there's nothing at home..yet she will prepare a mug of a hot milo for me..Okay2 done blabbering. .please stop...hehe...or else I'll cry for another reason..

The tricky pic Me and her

Wishes for you dik..

Selamat pengantin baru

Semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat

Semoga dikurniakan kebahagian bersama future kids yang comel2..

Semoga menjadi isteri yang taat pada Allah dan suami..

Please control ur hot temper tu sket ye..weee

Syg ko dik!

Asmah and siti nor

Yet if I go anywhere I'll always remember to buy something for her..don't know why..and btw her bro in law was actually my ex colleague at Sony..what a coincidence and small world kan..

Then I met this cute girl with happy minded...

She acted like she don't care what people say about her.. without any pretending..just do whatever she wants to..I like the way she bring herself to the others..

Like this statement. ..

Ado den kesah?