Wednesday, June 29, 2011

How Much I LOVE YOU mOm :)

I don't know what the best word to describe it
forgive me mom
maybe it's too late to seek for an apologize
but deep inside my heart I'm begging for a forgiveness
I'm a bad girl a bad child and a bad daughter.
the worst children that u ever have
I'm sorry for my wrongdoings
i know it's not good to regret but there are a lot of things to regret
i miss everything about u mom
i miss your voice
i miss your face
i miss your laugh
i miss your smile
i miss your hug
i miss your kiss
i miss when you are nagging at me
i miss when you are motivating me
i miss to hear you called me
mom...i miss you


by the time doc confirmed that you are no longer here
my world is blank
blur and the light become dim
as dim as there will be less light there
felt like fainted but thanks Allah,
i can stand and still strong
can face it even it is too hard
the pain inside my heart

i wonder why i saw the last time u breathe
i know it's so pain to endure it
there's a lot of things i want to show it to you
a lot of things to share with you
a lot of things to talk with you
but there's no more opportunity to do that
Allah won't let it happen again
Allah takes you from me.
forever.

Mom,
i got a sickness
no one can do like u did before
no one can wipe my tears
no one can bear to not to sleep tonight because i'm sick
i know u won't be here again indeed i do accept it
but sometime i can't believe it that u are no longer here..
i went to see u today
but i can't see u
i just can see the land
the place where u rest in peace
i can't hide my tears in front of that place
i don't know whether u saw me there
but i do believe that u know i went there

Mom,
there are too much i want to tell
maybe ppl will say i'm mad because i'm talking alone there
i'm hoping that u know i love n miss u
i can't endure this.
i know u won't let me sad all the way.
i promise mom, i try to be a good girl
one fine day i'm hoping that i will change myself
from worst to better.
please do pray for me.
Cause i know, Allah will fufil DOA from mother.
but i don't know now who will DOA for me same like u did before mom.
i don't feel secure like previous.
No one can replace u and be like u.
u are only u and the unique of u.


All of those picture were taken on April when 1st she admitted at HTJ Seremban 
and some were taken otw to HKL


she recited Yassin

She recited Yassin

The day before going to HKL and the BLOOD.

My Mom's name there.


She can't sleep that night and also got a fever.



OTW to HKL and she hold tasbih on her hand

my dad following us to HKL

the nurse ( i think) she is very nice person.
She recover after 3 weeks at HTJ but after a month later
and 2nd time admitted,
She gone and left us behind.
She left us on 19th June 2011 4.45 am.
17 Rejab 1432H

LET's recite Al-Fatihah to my MOM
Hajah Azizah Binti Hajah Norpiah.
May ALLAH bless U 
May U Rest in PEACE 









Ya Allah,
Ampuni dosa kami
Dosa ibu bapa kami
Dosa Keluarga kami
Aku bermohon kepadamu
Terangilah kubur ibuku
Janganlah Engkau sempit kan kuburnya
Ringankanlah siksaan ibuku didalam kuburnya Ya ALLAH,
sampaikanlah sedekah Al-Fatihah dan bacaan Al-Quran yang kami baca dan kirimkan untuknya Ya ALLAH.
Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Mengasihani.


Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Nasheed My Mother لسوف أعود يا أمي By Ahmed Bukhatir ,




لسوف أعود يا أمي
أقبّل رأسك الزاكي
أبتّك كل أشواقي
وأرشف عطر يمناك
أمرغ في ثرى قدميك
خدي حين ألقاك
أروي الترب من دمعي
سرورا في محياك

فكم أسهرت من ليل
لأرقد ملأ أجفاني
وكم أظمأت من جوف
لترويني بتحناني
ويوم مرضت لا أنسى
دموعا منك كالمطر
وعينا منك ساهرة
تخاف علي من خطر
ويوم وداعنا فجرا
وما أقساه من فجر
يحار القول في وصف الذي
لاقيت من هجري
وقلت مقولة لا زلــت
مدّكرا بها دهري
محال أن ترى صدرا
أحن عليك من صدري

ببرك يا منى عمري
إله الكون أوصاني
رضاؤك سر توفيقي
وحبك ومض إيماني
وصدق دعائك انفرجت
به كربي وأحزاني
ودادك لا يشاطرني
به أحد من البشر
فأنت النبض في قلبي
وأنت النور في بصري
وأنت اللحن في شفتي
بوجهك ينجلي كدري
إليك أعود يا أمي
غدا أرتاح من سفري
ويبدأ عهدي الثاني
ويزهو الغصن بالزهر


لسوف أعود يا أمي
أقبّل رأسك الزاكي
أبتّك كل أشواقي
وأرشف عطر يمناك
أمرغ في ثرى قدميك
خدي حين ألقاك
أروي الترب من دمعي
سرورا في محياك

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Kisah Hati


Kisah LALU Kisah Hati


ini bukan cinta

tajuk xbley blah
tp serious! ini bukan cinta tp nafsu
bukan perlu tp mahu
bukan hak tp hendak
bukan kepunyaan tp berkehendak
bukan memiliki tp mengambili
bukan iya tp bukan tidak
bukan dia tp hanya dia
bukan aku tp memang aku
aku tahu dia bukan untukku
utk kini dan selamanya


ayat2 mereng di atas adalah rekaan semata2
tiada yg berkenaan langsung mahupon x langsung walau pon bukan siaran langsung ke udara eyh
haha
BOSAN!


i know he won't be mine no matter what
but i just can't get rid of him
can't far from him
can't go without him
him!
i finally fallin' luv with him
him?

i don't want to get close of him please find me a way..i'm lost in my own world..

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

merayap

ahad aritu...konon je la duk umah sewa sgt kan
mmg la i ni x bley duk diam n xbley rase bosan
pantang bosan je mengayau
ape lagi.
ari ahad aritu dlm pukul 3 mcm tu i kua g nilai
g nilai 3 jap
tp paneh bangat
then i g lak umah yen
huhu
rindu plak ngn minah ni
last jmp mase kenduri kawan my sis aritu
so almost a month la jgk xjmp die
so ni je pic dlm nset i ngn die
i rase i da x camwhore sgt la
haha..bley caye ke statement tu
poyo jek
haha


ni la cik dayen kesygn sy
mcm2 mna pon die slh sorg yg bley jd BFF sy
hehe :)
pimple on my forehead da x terkawal.. i pon da malas nk guna produk2 cantik bg ilang pimple ni
sungguh serious malas
ape nk jadi daa
:(

i kua sat je ngn minah ni
g amek die pon da ptg
so singgah karok jap
tu pon plan spontan je
pas karok jenjln kt tesco putra nilai
pastu g mkn kt kedai fav die
n then anta die balek
skejap je
x puas lak
huuhuu xpe la kot
nnt jmp lg kn
jmp slu kang muak lak si yen ni ngn i
hehe
:p

die nk usha nset
n dgr cite nk angkat baru
wowww terangkat la psni pkai nset bru ye nokss
hehe

boley camwhore n save picca byk2..
trbahek la

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Monotonous

Sound ~ Monotonous.
Day ~ Bored

LIFE~ unexplained!

Today is SUNDAY bukan normal working day tapi semalam SATURDAY normal working day ok..da ibarat kje 1 mggu 7 hari da ni...menyampah..tp x kje pon bosan pulak..ni duk umah xtau nk buat ape pon..bosan giler..nk update cerita pon xd ape yg best utk diceritakan...ermm..pg td...g jog kt Tasik Chempaka.. jog 1 round je..pastu men badminton jap..then ade angin2 kuat sket..pastu ade la budak skola bwk bola jaring..ajak budak tu main sambil pinjam bola dorg..hehe..penat gle keja bola weh...serious..pastu g FASA 1 dekat pasar tu..melantak pulak..sia2 penat pg jog td..haha.. layan je..sbb lapa sgt..smlm xmkn..t'tdo...pas balek keje je da penat..time kje pon duk surau tu ..terlelap2...xtau ape yg memenatkn...tp kje ape je yg x penat..klu duk depan PC je pon penat gaban..haha... da la..xtau nk cita ape ni...sgt bosan skg..nk balek umah n9 pon nnt bosan jgk..baek la memerap je dlm bilik ni ha..on9..pastu tido..pastu bgn..pastu...buat je la ape2 yg ptt kt uma ni.....sgt bosan wehhh!

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

SS?

Swimming Plus Sauna~
Heavenly at heaven :)


Reduce Stress of Job load at work!

I bought this from THE BODY SHOP at Alamanda Putrajaya.. Best bau die..sedap n rase mcm nak makan..Berry2 nyummy!..Colourless pon.. pakai xnampak ape2 cume nmpk moist plus bau shedap banget! seriousss!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

Banyak

Banyak benda nak cerita tapi x tercerita..]
Mungkin sbb terlalu personal untuk diceritakan
atau pon xda idea nak cerita ape

BOSAN GILER KNE KEJE AHAD NI!
menyampah!!!


then KAIZEN lg..so another busyness week upcoming! welcome KAIZEN!

i wish i get this..but dunno when.. aahahaa

back side! cun dok?