Sunday, December 12, 2010


next week da kene present
takut n cuaks seh
hopefully i x gabra sgt
n everything will run smoothly
n hopefully not being rejected
inshaALLAH :)

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Masa utk diri sendiri.

My head is spinning around

24hr = seem that not enough
but i can't say that
i need to thank ALLAH because still giving me chances to breath.

2 days= off day also not enough
i mcm moral down
kdg2 nk mrh diri sndiri sbb x bley perform
n memalukn diri sndr dpn org ramai

td i men netball wakil tuk company i
tp ktrg klh men td
i slu t'pk..sbb i ke klh,

i msuk prtndgn ape2 x pnh menang pn
sedey la panas..pale skg pn da pening2..x ckup minum air kosong kot
klu rse2 nk demam ni
tbe2 mst rase nk nanges n tbe2 mst rndu kt mak

rse mcm x ptt je x balek mggu ni..
main pon klh jgk :(

i nk jadi budak baek
i nk jauhkn diri dr mrk yg jahanam tu
boleh ke ?

i sedey la...
i menci mereka itu...
i hrp ade nnt akn dtg..
yg baek...i want tht!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

LIFE for work n recently WORK for life.

  1. Dear Mr B,
  2. I knew that i confessed i already got a BF now
  3. but u r also a special one for me.
  4. Hari ni ngan semalam rasa nak menyumpah je
  5. tp tu la nak sumpah2 pon mcm la boleh kan
  6. perangai orang sekeliling yang sangat annoying.
  7. sangat2 la annoying
  8. i hate it. seriously!
  9. tapi nak buat macam mana
  10. kena hadapi jugak
  11. x kira la mcm mana pon ttp kena layannnnn
  12. I penat la
  13. ixtau nak ckp and explain macam mana
  14. tp i sgt penat
  15. beza betul kan..dulu n skg
  16. i rase hidup i ni
  17. macam pergi n balik kerja je
  18. tiap2 hari macam tu
  19. ermm
  20. tired! 
  21. marah n kadang2 rasa stress sangat
  22. menyampah sangat!
  23. sume yang sangat2 blaka
  24. I'm hoping get better soon.

antara collection yg cukup sy syg buat masa ni n smp bila2

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Dialog dia dan aku

sdiassalam aidiladha...
hati ni tetap rindukan awk...sygkan awk...
ye ke?
tp sy sdr,sy xkan dpt awk...
npe ckp mcm tu?
tu jwpn awk...
suka ati awk la nk ckp ape
awk ckp awk xbersedia...

DIALOG KISAH   chinta ptg aidil adha.

sy prasan yg sy smkin comot la x kesah la..sbb mmg sblum ni pon comot je jgk..ado den kesah? ado? ado?

Sunday, November 14, 2010


Ni bukan tajuk cte hndustan yg kareena kapoor blakon tu
erm tp saje nk wish advance Selamat Hr Ry Aidil Adha
Semoga Aidil dan
Silap cte..Semoga Adha n Ayu
Bukan3 jugak..

Semoga Raye ni disambut dgn penuh kesyukuran

Mintak Ampun Maaf klu ade ape2 yg terasa hati ok..
1 more important things to share
i cuti esok smp lah hr rya haji nnt
bley on9 24jam yeh!
tp khamis da nk kje balek

Arini i balek kg raye dgn Mr Ollen 4 d 1st time
actlly da byk kali da bwk Mr Ollen balek umah
tp today special sket sbb mase balek td ujan lebat
kecian Mr. Ollen i yg somel loteh lg hndsome tu
OH perasan la sgt yg BF i ni comel

Penat je die smart2 pg ujan plak
buang mase je die menyemart..
Igt nk kenal kn Mr Ollen i kt my sis yg 1st aka ALONG ALIN
tp x sempat lak..otw balek td Along i pon da otw balek umah die kt SA
so x sempat la
tp xpe len kali bley jmpe lg kn

Lebiu So muchie2 muchas Gracias!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010


topic mcm xbley blahhh kn?


SWEETNYE die ni...

tbe2 lupe tros kt FAHRIN
haha :P

sweet sgt lorh 

menulis blog semase melayan tv cte ASMARA
tbe2 suke lak ann
apo kes bai?

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Celebrate bday adek Vs Deepavali Vs Picnic PD

mkn2 @ smbn
mom n dad
muke lapo
angah senduk2


banana boat yg best mcm mkn banana split OH!
kolam yg sume kasi redah jerrr
seronot tp penat OH!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


day goes by
too much to tell
but as usual
can't tell every inch of it

i got a new BF
he's so in to my taste
finally i got him
yeah i know..
my parents give their permission and allow us to have an unique relationship
i called him Mr. Ollen
cute huh his name?
officially be mine on that special day
i'm hoping that our relationship and his condition will be good all the time

yeah bit stress
not bit but BIG
i mean a lot of stress
i knew which ever company u attached to
there'll be stress 
then it's a way how u can cope and manage it very well

i got a special gift from my second sis
she did gave me a very collective item that i like to collect
it is a watch
white in colour and really appreciate it
i also got Toblerone form Scotland also
Lucky her!
Training+holiday there.
Thankx so much Angah!

i have many things to tell
i don't know why i can't tell it thru this medium 

seriously i miss this time
i knew it won't be happen again
but i can't deny it
really miss it

and i miss this time also
whenever i used to be a cam whore girl
recently i can't be the one that i used to be before
skg da busy
nak amek gmbr sndri and gedik2 pon da xbley
tu la
org kate kene hargai mase yg ade
skg ni tdo pon da awl
da x bley nk lepak2 n stay up smp pagi mcm dlu
klu lmbt tdo alamatnye penyet ah keje sok

well, still dlm condition tuk m'biasakan diri ngn keadaan sekeliling
pg smlm mcm sweet..ade note dekat ats meja opiz
don't know sape yg tulis
tp mcm bley agak sape yg tulis la
"bg la no phone"
haha :p
da bg kot tp tipu pny no la

annoying btul ble ade Mamat "K" nk ngorat2 ni
ckp pon bunyi "K" lg.. hadoii serabut je
n dpt byk advise bunyik cmni
"T, ko jgn layan budak tu"
n mmg x layan la kaann

tp ade lg keje yg x settle ni
nk kne buat audit check sheet 5S + 2S ni
wpn bos bg ref tp still mcm x phm
n mase xd nk buat lg

isshoukenmei ganbaru yo
dpt word ni dr mang
tbe2 nk blaja ckp jepon
ssh btul klu x phm term2 biasa dorg ni
serabut kojo den jd eh

bile xde langsung tu mmg xd sgt
n bile ade tu slu bukan yg kte nak
cmne nk buat
crik @ hoping something better yg satisfy what we actually want
susah kn jd manusia
baru tau
tp jd haiwan pon lg semacam je susah
xtau  la
wallahuallam bissawab
jaga ego n std sebab org laen
n diri sndr pny spec
perlu ke sume ni?
n smp ble nk mcm ni je ?

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Motif Sebenar~

xde motif pon
saje nk upload gmbr je
tbe2 rase nk p jln2
mcm dulu2
oh mgkin x dpt ikut cik dea n aizan nnt
sedey lorh

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Saya tidak BROKEN okay~

~Syndrome STML~

Nice Voice~ ehem2..
Good to hear~ ehem2
Complimentary :)

UNPAID LEAVE=terminated 
Fraudulent! uh

oh no..!!!
I'm totally not!

Monday, October 25, 2010


today lil bit messy
my mind
and all
i called my dad
and i cried
it's just that i can't bear anymore
i can't stand
why am i feeling like this
i'm not strong enough
i shud be stronger than before
y i'd be like this
sadness please go away
i want happiness besides me
which i know it can't
i really miss my life before
and i'm hoping i get better in time

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

nak nangesss!

Like a lil child
yes i wanna cry!
i don't know why
but there's sumthing inside

in d midst
in d middle
between here n there
i'm a lil child need guidance n plz
i'm listening to all
but i can't speak it out
help me out..

there and here
so much challenges
i need to face it
i can!!
yes i can!

Thursday, October 14, 2010



dis week try drive hoh
too much things i did experience


10.10.10 aritu
my sis engaged
congratz to her n her fiancĂ©e
wish them happily ever after.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


today! huh rase nk update mcm2 cte about new env now
but mcm kene postpone n x bley jnj bley cte ke x
but d fact that i can't deny is I MISS U Mr. B,
so much!

today wat mnde gile2 x hengattt palinggg sempoi i pnh wt
wrote a love note on d car n put it on other's car
huh! mmg x pnh jgka pnh wat mnde ni
tp mcm sweet x?
hahaha but d real fact is i'm juz a rep for those who meant to send the love note
seriously not mine k
i'm helping someone else only

Beb dear,
slmt enjoy holidays until u get d new job soon k
bit hard to say good bye to u coz i'm still hoping that u r there with me at d same company
even i know it's too late to say anything
i will miss u beb and all kind of things that we did together
from 1st day we met until now
u r such a good buddy dear
can't even forget about u and all ur good deed to me

da! need to sleep 
it's too late already
and i'm tired too
 c u Mr B
will update soon k
regularly but can't promise on daily basis for updating
juz take care k.

i miss my family too..
2 days like a 2 months huh?

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Wednesday, September 29, 2010


Adolescence is just a mess!
I'm getting to far from HIM.
I don't know what i should do from now on.
I want to be a good girl. Be success in whatever i do.
Do there is a time for me. Can i achieve my goals and my target. Is there any space for me to repent.
i know someday i would left from this beautiful world.
but do i fully preparing myself to face it. Do i know when the right time is? I don't know, and i should care. i'm hoping to guide myself as what i know and learn before and hoping someone can guide me too. People do change and so do i. Sometimes i want happiness but sometimes happiness doesn't remain by my side. sometimes what actually we want are not meant for us. SO let appreciate whatever we have now otherwise we will regret it later. It's so hard to be me but i know the hardness is a way to learn and whereas maturity begun.
One of my neighbor passed away yesterday. Let's recite Al-Fatihah to her. Let her rest in peace.

My mom bit surprised coz i attended the funeral ceremony.
She said that "mak x sangko ko datang, x b'suruh pn datang"
then i replied " da bosa mak, xkan nak b'suruh br nk datang, pandailah pikir"

ermm it is proven that my behavior like a lil child . But i think i'm adult already but absolutely differ from what my mom expect me to be.

Mak saya kata tak suka jangan layan
Kawan saya kata saya ni memilih
Saya kata saya tak tahu lah!

saya rasa saya ni bermasalah lah
lebih baek kamu jauhkan diri dari saya sekarang
kalau tidak kamu mungkin bermasalah semacam saya juga!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Song entitled TAMAN Astakona :P

i don't ever knew that there is a song entitle above
until someone did sing it to me
so i asked what the title of it
1st time i did hear it
i think i like too
layan rockapak ah plak kn

My G

it's been 8 years pass by
days come n go
but he still
his love remain
only for her
even he knew that she had no longer here
no more accompany him
wherever he go
whatever he do
she left him
left him all alone
but the loneliness doesn't make sense
because she left him with their child
she never left him alone even the real fact is
she already left us
but i respect the true love of him
he still can stand to be a men without a women
no one can be like that
he is
only he is
he is my Grandpa
i know he misses her too much
too much that can't be count off
the strength and the eyes
can't lied to us
once a year
he did the effort to clean up her place
it's show his love never be changed
even time can't change it
only ALLAH know
the truth is.

i never met a men just like him
i mean his love only for one
but i do met people who can
gives their love to everyone
do it count as a pure love?
u can like many people but
u can only love one
once u said u love her
u must and only love her
no matter what happen to her
u will be by her side
u can't left her
u can't hurt her
that's the truth love is
her word might harsh
her attitude might rude
but u can accept her the way she is
if u really love her.
but now
u said u love me
u left me
u r too cruel
u r too much
i can't stand to see u
it's just that
i know that previously
u just play with my heart
i don't want to hate u
but u did everything that make me
change my mind
i said i hate u
deep inside my heart
i know

Monday, September 27, 2010

Bowl and breaking d fast at CHicken Hartz Snwy Pyrmd.

Gua rase arini mcm nk tempek gmbr je kt sini
Gua rase mcm lain je plak post ni..kenape ye?

baru Gua perasan bhw gua telah memakai ayat yg agak RARE disitu
pndai plak b' ni sejak bile pulak kn
mgkin pengaruh utk m'jd gangster x jd gua mse dulu2 kale
ceh! geli pon ade gune gua2 ni heh..
btw ni picca my mummy n her colleague mse buke pose
i sje join sbb busan2 kn
so mummy pon ajak
she n her twin agak gila2 sket
besh kwn ngn dorg ni
happening je
but ktrg da prob sket
mslh xtau jln
n slumber kodok je blsh men jln

Da la, mls nk b'cerabih da
layan je la picca2 yg gua upload ni

dlm byk2 gmbr tu

xtau knp tp i ase pic ni cm poyo sket
:P haha

Dear B, 
i tgh serabut sbenarnye ni
tp i pretend cm xd ape yg blaku je
ok la B
sok i nk kje da
wish me luck 4 2mrw n onwards k
i'm hoping for a solution 4 my unscrupulous questions!

Friday, September 17, 2010


please be informed

Thursday, September 16, 2010

not feeling well

i'm not feeling well
running nose again
kepale mcm keTING keTONG da
lately can't stand to stay up until 2-3am
even worse only can stand until 12
AIYOH! even 10 da kiong2 and    
lappy till on until 5-6am but actually  
the girl in front of d lappy is having a nice dream sleeping 
w/out  pillow and comforter
didn't plan to sleep but coincidentally sleeping until Subuh
wanted to update but rarely best stories to tell
poor B
don't know what to update
a single word lost 
coz having not so well condition
and also bb didn't give  fully co-operation
always DC  such a sudden n ikt skati die
poor network here 

it's more about jealousy but nonchalant
so confused but i know there's something behind that we don't know yet
there'll be something unexpectedness and explicitly can't be understand by people out there

Get rid of me coz i might hurting you
it's true if it's not you that i mean
please go away!

Monday, September 13, 2010

Raya lg :)

2nd day of RAYA

xtau nak update ape tp mcm nk letak gmbar ni je
sekian la utk post kali ni..
c u later on :p

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

:) i love it when it about raya :)

~waiting for my sis..gonna go back home today~
another raya episode
i love the mood of raya
and smell of Holidays 
smell of various food and festive cookies 
yes! I like
2morrow confirm need to cook many types of food
such as Lemang-this is compulsory ok
Rendang and also many things to do.

curios x i slu update blog recently?
x bz ker???
actually juz sbscrbing new celc brdbnd..
dunno until when i'll b using it

Don't know what title supposed to be :p

Today bit tiring but i still can manage and fasting succesfully.
i saw Kaklong on my way to Sony  today
she's bit thinner than before.
when i'll become thin?
of coz can't :P
bit tough to b like that.
i don't know what to tell about actually but i want to update and blogging now
tomorrow i'm gonna go back home.
can't wait to go back
so fortunately this year i didn't have to buy a ticket penang to n9
it's finally over with over worried about no ticket to go back home for raya

during my university time i did.........
(2 b continue if i want to tell)

Basically Happy Hari Raya in advance :)
May This Raya brings along happiness in ur life.
will update later on about raya day
InsyaALLAH :)

I'm so thankful about today.
It's such a sudden that i got into this..
THANKS ALLAH for the new challenges :)

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Dear B

Dear B,

I lied to u
i didn't study for today
i kept on on9 and wasting my time reading new moon
sorry B
Didn't mean to lie to you
btw i', listening to i love the way u lie
do u love the way i lie?
sorry B,
juz kidding k :)

~in d right mood of updating blog everyday
posting everything that i think i shouldn't post~


SUNDAY-Sept 5, 2010 it's been a bored day today. don't know what to do but actually my friend did invite me to go out with them, but i don't really want to go out. My money for sure will finish easily if i go out with them.So morning i wasted my time with sleeping, because yesterday i did sleep late at night. In fact i slept at 3-4 am. I'm not so sure but certainly at that kind range of time. I have no shoes for raye also tudung for raya. I might be using the old stuff of mine for this becoming raye. I'm so stingy! Don't even to buy new one for myself. It's bit tough n hard to live at KL with minimum amount of allowance. My budget and savings are not so much for that only for shopping unnecessary things. I should stop spending money for useless stuff. But actually, the real fact is i really want to buy a wedges for this upcoming special day i mean raya day la. i'm hoping to get it but if i don't have it now i will buy it later. it's not only for raya right?.
weekend? what to do huh? blogging is the right things to do if ....erk.. i have forgotten..i need to prepare for this tuesday..sorry dear, i'll get back to u after i done studying :p

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Pets of mine

just want to introduce my mom's pet here
cute huh?
i don't really like cats,
but now i think i change my mind
i'm starting liking it so much
one of my friend said
and advise me to take care of any pets
so now i got 1 fish
actually 6 previously but another 5 dead 
maybe i don't know how to take care of it
so they gone
i'm hoping for the only fish that i have
hoping that it lives longer that what i expected.
i already bought new house for my fish
quite cute n of coz i like it
but unfortunately only 1 fish alive
another 5 didn't have the opportunity to live in that new 'house'
pity on them
actually i'm bit sad
i cried bcoz i think that i do not have the ability to have and taking
care of a pet
at least 1 accompany me until now
i'm hoping that it will be lasting

i have no pic of my fish
i'll upload later if i have one
u can c d pic of d owner of d pets k :P
i'm getting too much syndrome of Laziness
plz get off LAZY-BONE!


I know that we are young and I know that you may love me,
but I just can’t be with you like this anymore, Alejandro.
She’s got both hands in her pocket
And she won’t look at you (won’t look at you)
She hides true love en su bolsillo
She’s got a halo around her finger
Around you
You know that I love you boy
Hot like Mexico, rejoice
At this point I’ve gotta choose
Nothing to lose
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Alejandro
I’m not your babe,
I’m not your babe, Fernando
Don’t wanna kiss
Don’t wanna touch
Just smoke my cigarette and hush
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Roberto
Alejandro, Alejandro,
Alejandro, Alejandro,
Please, just let me go
Alejandro, just let me go
She’s not broken
She’s just a baby
But her boyfriend’s like her dad
Just like a dad
And all those flame that burned before him
Now he’s gotta firefight
Got-cool the bad
You know that I love you boy
Hot like Mexico rejoice
At this point I’ve gotta choose
Nothing to lose
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Alejandro
I’m not your babe,
I’m not your babe, Fernando
Don’t wanna kiss
Don’t wanna touch
Just smoke my cigarette and hush
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Roberto
Alejandro, Alejandro,
Alejandro, Alejandro,
Don’t bother me,
Don’t bother me, Alejandro
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, bye Fernando
I’m not your babe,
I’m not your babe, Alejandro
Don’t wanna kiss,
Don’t wanna touch, Fernando
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Alejandro
I’m not your babe,
I’m not your babe, Fernando
Don’t wanna kiss
Don’t wanna touch
Just smoke my cigarette and hush
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Roberto
Alejandro, Alejandro,
Alejandro, Alejandro,
OUTRO //Note in this section, counter-melody repeats last section of
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Alejandro
I’m not your babe,
I’m not your babe, Fernando
Don’t wanna kiss
Don’t wanna touch
Just smoke my cigarette and hush
Don’t call my name,
Don’t call my name, Roberto

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

i am not me

there r too many to write but i don't know which i should tell 1st
it's been 3 month i'm here
so i just follow with the flow
there are some changes
i mean inside n outside me
i did sins
unexpected sins that i can't avoid off
i hate being someone else
or actually i'm the one who got the attitude.
i hate being the one that i don't recognized at all
am i going too far?
can i'll be forgiven?
everyone did mistakes
but do my repentance accepted?
too much to babble about
unfathomable to think deeper
so hard of being me
did that words count as i am not appreciating what i have now
i want more
i want better and better
i'm just normal human being
i'm hoping for better n more