Wednesday, September 29, 2010
I'm getting to far from HIM.
I don't know what i should do from now on.
I want to be a good girl. Be success in whatever i do.
Do there is a time for me. Can i achieve my goals and my target. Is there any space for me to repent.
i know someday i would left from this beautiful world.
but do i fully preparing myself to face it. Do i know when the right time is? I don't know, and i should care. i'm hoping to guide myself as what i know and learn before and hoping someone can guide me too. People do change and so do i. Sometimes i want happiness but sometimes happiness doesn't remain by my side. sometimes what actually we want are not meant for us. SO let appreciate whatever we have now otherwise we will regret it later. It's so hard to be me but i know the hardness is a way to learn and whereas maturity begun.
One of my neighbor passed away yesterday. Let's recite Al-Fatihah to her. Let her rest in peace.
My mom bit surprised coz i attended the funeral ceremony.
She said that "mak x sangko ko datang, x b'suruh pn datang"
then i replied " da bosa mak, xkan nak b'suruh br nk datang, pandailah pikir"
ermm it is proven that my behavior like a lil child . But i think i'm adult already but absolutely differ from what my mom expect me to be.
Mak saya kata tak suka jangan layan
Kawan saya kata saya ni memilih
Saya kata saya tak tahu lah!
saya rasa saya ni bermasalah lah
lebih baek kamu jauhkan diri dari saya sekarang
kalau tidak kamu mungkin bermasalah semacam saya juga!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
it's been 8 years pass by
days come n go
but he still
his love remain
only for her
even he knew that she had no longer here
no more accompany him
wherever he go
whatever he do
she left him
left him all alone
but the loneliness doesn't make sense
because she left him with their child
she never left him alone even the real fact is
she already left us
but i respect the true love of him
he still can stand to be a men without a women
no one can be like that
only he is
he is my Grandpa
i know he misses her too much
too much that can't be count off
the strength and the eyes
can't lied to us
once a year
he did the effort to clean up her place
it's show his love never be changed
even time can't change it
only ALLAH know
the truth is.
i never met a men just like him
i mean his love only for one
but i do met people who can
gives their love to everyone
do it count as a pure love?
u can like many people but
u can only love one
once u said u love her
u must and only love her
no matter what happen to her
u will be by her side
u can't left her
u can't hurt her
that's the truth love is
her word might harsh
her attitude might rude
but u can accept her the way she is
if u really love her.
u said u love me
u left me
u r too cruel
u r too much
i can't stand to see u
it's just that
i know that previously
u just play with my heart
i don't want to hate u
but u did everything that make me
change my mind
i said i hate u
deep inside my heart
Monday, September 27, 2010
Gua rase arini mcm nk tempek gmbr je kt sini
Gua rase mcm lain je plak post ni..kenape ye?
baru Gua perasan bhw gua telah memakai ayat yg agak RARE disitu
pndai plak b'gua2.com.my ni sejak bile pulak kn
mgkin pengaruh utk m'jd gangster x jd gua mse dulu2 kale
ceh! geli pon ade gune gua2 ni heh..
btw ni picca my mummy n her colleague mse buke pose
i sje join sbb busan2 kn
so mummy pon ajak
she n her twin agak gila2 sket
besh kwn ngn dorg ni
but ktrg da prob sket
mslh xtau jln
n slumber kodok je blsh men jln
Da la, mls nk b'cerabih da
layan je la picca2 yg gua upload ni
dlm byk2 gmbr tu
MY FAV is THIS
xtau knp tp i ase pic ni cm poyo sket
i tgh serabut sbenarnye ni
tp i pretend cm xd ape yg blaku je
ok la B
sok i nk kje da
wish me luck 4 2mrw n onwards k
i'm hoping for a solution 4 my unscrupulous questions!
Friday, September 17, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
i'm not feeling well
running nose again
kepale mcm keTING keTONG da
lately can't stand to stay up until 2-3am
even worse only can stand until 12
AIYOH! even 10 da kiong2 and
lappy till on until 5-6am but actually
the girl in front of d lappy is having a nice dream sleeping
w/out pillow and comforter
didn't plan to sleep but coincidentally sleeping until Subuh
wanted to update but rarely best stories to tell
don't know what to update
a single word lost
coz having not so well condition
and also bb didn't give fully co-operation
always DC such a sudden n ikt skati die
poor network here
it's more about jealousy but nonchalant
so confused but i know there's something behind that we don't know yet
there'll be something unexpectedness and explicitly can't be understand by people out there
Get rid of me coz i might hurting you
it's true if it's not you that i mean
please go away!
Monday, September 13, 2010
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
~waiting for my sis..gonna go back home today~
another raya episode
i love the mood of raya
and smell of Holidays
smell of various food and festive cookies
yes! I like
2morrow confirm need to cook many types of food
such as Lemang-this is compulsory ok
Rendang and also many things to do.
curios x i slu update blog recently?
x bz ker???
actually juz sbscrbing new celc brdbnd..
dunno until when i'll b using it
Today bit tiring but i still can manage and fasting succesfully.
i saw Kaklong on my way to Sony today
she's bit thinner than before.
when i'll become thin?
of coz can't :P
bit tough to b like that.
i don't know what to tell about actually but i want to update and blogging now
tomorrow i'm gonna go back home.
can't wait to go back
so fortunately this year i didn't have to buy a ticket penang to n9
it's finally over with over worried about no ticket to go back home for raya
during my university time i did.........
(2 b continue if i want to tell)
Basically Happy Hari Raya in advance :)
May This Raya brings along happiness in ur life.
will update later on about raya day
I'm so thankful about today.
It's such a sudden that i got into this..
THANKS ALLAH for the new challenges :)
Sunday, September 5, 2010
I lied to u
i didn't study for today
i kept on on9 and wasting my time reading new moon
Didn't mean to lie to you
btw i', listening to i love the way u lie
do u love the way i lie?
juz kidding k :)
~in d right mood of updating blog everyday
posting everything that i think i shouldn't post~
weekend? what to do huh? blogging is the right things to do if ....erk.. i have forgotten..i need to prepare for this tuesday..sorry dear, i'll get back to u after i done studying :p
Thursday, September 2, 2010
just want to introduce my mom's pet here
i don't really like cats,
but now i think i change my mind
i'm starting liking it so much
one of my friend said
and advise me to take care of any pets
so now i got 1 fish
actually 6 previously but another 5 dead
maybe i don't know how to take care of it
so they gone
i'm hoping for the only fish that i have
hoping that it lives longer that what i expected.
i already bought new house for my fish
quite cute n of coz i like it
but unfortunately only 1 fish alive
another 5 didn't have the opportunity to live in that new 'house'
pity on them
actually i'm bit sad
i cried bcoz i think that i do not have the ability to have and taking
care of a pet
at least 1 accompany me until now
i'm hoping that it will be lasting
i have no pic of my fish
i'll upload later if i have one
u can c d pic of d owner of d pets k :P
i'm getting too much syndrome of Laziness
plz get off LAZY-BONE!
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
there r too many to write but i don't know which i should tell 1st
it's been 3 month i'm here
so i just follow with the flow
there are some changes
i mean inside n outside me
i did sins
unexpected sins that i can't avoid off
i hate being someone else
or actually i'm the one who got the attitude.
i hate being the one that i don't recognized at all
am i going too far?
can i'll be forgiven?
everyone did mistakes
but do my repentance accepted?
too much to babble about
unfathomable to think deeper
so hard of being me
did that words count as i am not appreciating what i have now
i want more
i want better and better
i want better and better
i'm just normal human being
i'm hoping for better n more