..................i felt dizziness..i felt burden in my head..i felt cold ..................
felt so hard to wake up in the morning..felt like to fall....got fever plus swollen tonsils.. :(
whatever..i need to go to the office no matter what..
Open my PC n i read emails
EMAIL received from : Norliza Razali Aka ALONG
Content: too private to reveal
family matters
Conclusion : tears flow heavily like a river :( uwaaaa
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I wrote a note to my boss
En Kamarul,
I'm going to the clinic at Annexe 2.If anything, pls call me.
Siti.
Back from the clinic another love note i put it on my boss's table.
En Kamarul,
I got MC for today (5/7/2010).
Siti.
(TUES)Yesterday
on my way back to rent house..i got a call from my lil bro..
Adik : Acik lptp acik org tu x buleh buek..kono tuka mother board
Acik: Bapo kono eh klu tuka?
Adik: Dlm RM700 lobeh..org tu x buleh buek..klu nk kono anta ACER centre..
Acik: Maha lak ai..ee (dlm ati mcm nk nanges..baek boli baru yo? mano nk dapek duet ni ? )
Adik: Kito share la baya..
mmg mcm nk nanges pn mase tau tu.da dpt agak da mcm ni.sbb klu xbley on je mst org tu da xbley wt ape da :(
laz week n dis week so mcm2 mnde yg wt i touching2 sket
rase nk nanges je..i can't bear to hide my sadness..
damn loves my baby lappy..oh no..can't face the fact that u r not here anymore..nk mrh n slhkn adik pon da letih da..xlrt nk ckp ape da..npe slu je jd cmni ek..mcm2 je hal yg sedey
Message received yesterday
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Cinderella :haah bestfren..nnt jd la boyfren 2..wakakakaka... Beb, tettt da kapel ek?
(WED)Today
Rapunzel : Beb, die da kapel ke? Mne u tau? I xtau da pape psl die..da xcntct I lg die..sori smlm i da tdo..
Cinderella: Beb, kt FB la..dia in a relationship with TETTT klo x silap i,..
Rapunzel : Ye ke? Xpe la.die bkn jdh i..nk wt cmne kn..2 pn da nmpk die bukan suke kt i pn..
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When i said i want to be ur friends only that doesn't mean that i had rejected u..don't felt that u r rejected ok..i need time and space for myself.. i just want to be ur friend, know u well, before i can open up my heart..fully open to welcome u into my life.. if that things really makes u happy..just go ahead..i need time to persuade my heart..u can't force me..same goes to me to..i want u to be happy..the things is..i scared being frustrated..n actually i always feel that..my life..juz don't care..when u did this to me.. it's revealed that u r actually not really love me..btw u r not trying to..not even try to maintain our relationship..
Ya ALLAH,
ampunilah dosa2ku, dosa kedua ibu bapaku, keluargaku, rakan2ku..dan seluruh umat islam di dunia ini. Ya ALLAH, tabahkan lah hatiku menempuh dugaanmu..sesungguhnya hatiku rapuh dan mudah tersentuh dengan segala apa yg berlaku.Ya ALLAH yg Maha Pemurah lg Maha Mengasihani, jauhilah daku dari segala kehinaan dan segala kedukaan. Jauhilah kami dari bala bencana dan api neraka. Sesungguhnya hanya kepadamu kami memohon petunjuk dan pertolongan.
to cajole my heart and my tears to stop flowing, i always remember that..
ALLAH x kn beri ujian yg slgmana mnusia tu xbley nk tggung..kesimpulannya ALLAH akan beri ujian yg mampu ditanggung oleh umat manusia itu..termasuk lah diri ini..baru je kne test sket..da lbey2 plak kn..
need to motivate myself..cheer up beb!
hopefully dis girl strong enough to face the real fact in her life
-AMIN-
1 comment:
timah~~~bertabah!!
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